monday again.
okay.im like so fuckin pissed off now!!
argh damn de bloody lagg shitt com im usin now.
n bcos its laggy i cant post the pix i have frm ytd’s outing.FUCK!!
okayy.stop me b4 i spill all my profanities out on the table.
ARGHHHHhhHH.
damn shitt com im usin.n daddi wun change it fer me.ohh well.unless i pay fer it myself.which is lemme see.arnd $500+, $600?wtf ya.im so not goin to waste my hard earned pay on dat.bloody hell.pay pay pay.everyting pay by myself.bloody fucking hell.n my hp cant connect to the computer bcos my usb is not regconised?!wth.geex.im like SO close to whackin the com.
it wld turn into a pulp.argh.
anw.had another bad dream todae.so what’s new ya.been havin bad dreams recently.mimi tinks it mite be bcos its the 7th mth.eEks.im haunted by the momoks.
ahhHH..save me.LOL.
okie.last nite i dreamt my fwen was dead.haha.im not sadist or secretly cursing my fwen la.but it felt reallie real.SERIOUS.and i woke up tinkin did he reallie die?LOL.no worries.he’s alive.hahaa.yeap.and e previous nite was much more drama.
i dreamt dere was a volcano eruption.in SINGAPORE!!
waddeblooddyyhell.
at the start, i was walkin in sme garden/park and it was dark and pouring.
den dey were snails everywhr!!ahhHH~
and den sme gurl took me awae.and i was in a house.
the hse caught fire bcos of the volcano eruption.
i ran out of the hse to the shore of the ocean.
i kept on running, the soles of my shoes were melting frm the heat.
i was so afraid..i tink i mite have died smewhr.haha.
i woke up. -.-”
dark/nite - grief, disappointment and loss.
volcano - family quarrels, disturbances/fights.
pouring rain - feelings of depression or heavy trouble.
snails - infidelity, adultery.
stormy ocean - sorrow and troubles.
okay.i sound pathetically sad.LOL.wth.anw.didi went fer his checkup todae.turns out he’s fine.yayy!!but he needs to go baq fer another checkup jux to be sure.fingers cross fer him.haix.so worried. ):
anw.i will try to post rummage pix up real sn.once my com is actualli functioning again. ):
x listenin to : the all american rejects.
RUMMAGE!!
jux got back from RUMMAGE.hahaa in case you dont know what it is (which i tink you probably dont), its a dance-sical brought to us by SMU dance!!yayy.hahaa.and my darling momo was the oh so bimbotic ALMOND.with her sidekick VICTORIA.the overall of the dance-sical was pretty light-hearted and hilarious la.haha.reallie fun.and it was at jubilee hall, raffles hotel. (:
anw.i kapok-ed e booklet tingie dey issued out.cos its reallie pretti. ^^
hahaa.aft e show was over took tons of photos.but dey are all in momo’s cam so gonna get em tml i guess.will post em up wen i get em.hahaa.was reallie glaad i saw ish oso.been such a long time since i met up wif her.hee.momo went to her aft show party at god knows whr.and me.went to 7-11 to gt mashed potatoes.hahaa.yeah.ish had a boost choco bar.get FAT rite.LOL.
wadeva la.
anw.eatin sme pakistan mango now.LOL.its actualli pretti nice.its quite addictive.LOL.but it has this reallie weird powdery taste to it.hahaa.eEks.mite gt food poisoning sn.LOL.doin sme research fer mkt proj now.will head off to slp aft dis.and audition is gettin pretti hard aft i passed e license.its like everybody is so pro.and im sme noob shitt who’s so cmi. )):
ohh well.im off to do my research.tata~
x listenin to : ashlee simpson.
LOST.
okiee.guess wad.jux realised all e testimonials in my friendster acct is GONE!!
waddebloodyyhell.
arghH.sway.shitti-fied.
haix.nvm la.friendster onli.
anw.todae was quite amusing.cos took bus to inter aft sch wif felii and yen.got dwn and BOO.my card holder tingie was gone.so i tot i left it on the bus!! )): so rushed to the service center wif felii.was kinda teary cos it contained cash + ez-link + IC.if it was lost.dere goes my firx pay ya. ): yeap.so luckily the bus was still at the parking bay.didnt leave yet.so ime n felii went on board n searched e whole freakin bus.ahhHH.it wasnt dere la.so ended up retracing my steps frm wen i left e bus.and thank god.felii found it!!
YAYY!!
thx to my loveliee.hee hee.
aft dat went hme n stuff la.
pontanked lecs todae morn.went to sch arnd 2+pm.was so emo-fied on e bus summore.todae was emo fied all over. )): but ate abit moer den ytd.gt a lil craving here n dere.ohh well.sch is reallie boringg.if din have my loveliees.i wld have long died.ohh gosh.
x listenin to : the all american rejects (:
midnite depression.
so im sittin here.with music playin.
classical actualli.weird ya.
classical is nice in the wee hrs.
it suits my mood.
mild but passionate.
)):
okay.arty farty.
n i cried a lil jux now.
dont ask me why.
why was i born emo.i wonder too.
i am not a sunshine gurl.
i wonder.
why am i alw so tired.
why am i alw so alone.
dere are pple arnd me.
dere are pple dat care.
and yet it feels like no one’s dere.
i tink its part of growin up.
life is too fast.
pple cant love dat much.
everydae my youth is being wasted.
everydae death steps towards me.
one dae i will look back n tink of life.
and tink of the youth dat passed me by.
dont u ever wonder how u will die?
or more of when u will die?
when i die.will dere be people at my grave?
i have seen myself dying many times in dreams.
many times i wake up in tears.
bcos i can still feel the fear.
)):
i cant imagine.if i were to lose a loved one.
i dont tink i wld be able to take it.
i tink i wld break like a toothpick.
it seems as though everydae the bubble im in cracks.
and the walls cave in.
if onli i cld fly or be transported to another place.
whr i lie alone in an open field.
whr im not afraid.
but rather relaxed and whole.
i tink im too depressed as a kid.
mayb i am eh.
maybe.
x listenin to : sappy piano pieces.
