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Initially, the holidays were planned to be a period of rest and getting things back tgt. Yet now I feel worse then ever. My whole body aches and my chest and head are constantly throbbing with pain. I feel strangely empty as though i had lost some part of me. Can’t quite explain it, I just feel so lost. Some things feel as though they’ve changed and can hardly ever be the same. I think maybe I’ve changed. Ever so often when i lapse into a daze unknowingly, I feel as though nothing matters anymore. Im just a vessel passing through time and space. I have many doubts, fears and pain unaddressed.

Everything just feels so heavy I want to push it away to the corner of my head and ignore its existance. Till im alone and i lay in bed and the heavy heart settles in. Then i question how long more i can keep up.