Filed under: reflections
it’s back to one,
and back to none.
too swayed by what’s on the screens
we’ve lost track of what it actually means
and so you said it foolishly to me
i’m pretty sure now, you’re sorry you did
’cause now im just only ‘that phase’
& in a heartbeat you’ve changed your pace
if it is to end, let it end where it began
it’s time to reverse the cycle, start over again
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overslept today morning, cant say it wasnt expected lol
dragged my sorry ass to school, went for projects.
ate a pau & lychee tea for breakfast.
totally screensaver mode today with extreme dips in energy level.
either i was totally high or totally low. spastic.
giggled at times like a retard then became super grouchy.
crawled to cds. change of tutor. YAYY!
no more super-anal-mean teacher 
spastic moments with ish in tut lol
wtf pen rolling and shit jokes.
met up with rayne after school.
shoe shopping and dark choc digestive biscuits munching.
met jn for dinner at vivo, kim gary heavy loaded cheese meal.
the 3 silly gossipy bitches reunite. awesomeee.
planned to catch wanted at cine but it was full. 
no angelina for me. damn sad.
bruised from wednesday, yet again.
pictures up soon, once gracia shares.
Filed under: loves
got back from the Bintan Lagoon Resort.
awesome trip which left me in a massive amount of pain.
i have no idea how im going to travel around the next few days.
i walk like a retard and upper body movements are killing me.
oh and i’ve got bruises on my face. what the hell.
i’m disfigured. dont mock me.
so heres some of the 200 pictures from the trip.lol
I will be in Bintan in like 12hours. so yeah.
A weekend getaway from everything, with my loved ones.
pictures from wednesday
got to sleep at about 6am, got up at 8.15am or so.
horribly worn out. vodka is a silent killer.
hotcakes & sausage and a cappucino.
struggled with my Burberry, i took a cab home.
got back, showered and felt much better.
it sure feels good to be back home.
wednesday felt like a dream.
it felt as though things came through.
i think all the liquor put a rush to my head
& broke all the barriers that held my emotions in.
i remember, yet i wonder what difference it made.
if i could, i would relive that moment again.
when i felt so vulnerable & yet so honest with myself.
sounding so silly like a child.
being unbothered by everyone else who was insignificant.
i guess that was how it felt as i recall.
maybe thats why its called ‘letting loose’,
cause you become unrestrained and bare.
but its scary when you’re broken down
cause you’ll never know who will be there to protect you.
well, its one day at a time.
but you’re still close.
on a lighter note, some pictures from last week.
pictures from wednesday up soon.
